So I decided to take a day off from the gym because I plan to take my plyometrics and body weight routines to our front yard. I have a tire that I had found last week and my intention is to do something w/ it today. By doing this means I had to turn off my alarm and go back to bed. Yet here I am wide awake and regretting that I made a foolish decision by not going to the gym. I have been up since 5:55AM. I simply cannot sleep in, it seems like.
This past week has been overwhelming. As I look at my Yelp profile, I see the countless compliments I have to approve and get back; the thought of it discouraged me. I felt that I am so far behind that there’s no turning back. I had emails to reply to and I had to reach out to some people because I haven’t had the time to do so. Work has been crazy and mentally exhausting enough to skip going to the bathroom. A big sigh of relief came over me when I walked out the door yesterday. There will be questions, requests, and escalations but I will worry about it tonight or tomorrow. That’s what I need. I need a mental vacation.
On top of work I have classes to study for. It is very tough doing anything after work but I’m a firm believer that hard work will eventually pay off. I’m on the right path to learn and grow. I’m grateful that my GM approved me to take our company’s available online resource “school”.
So the past week I have been counting macros. A concept that isn’t new to me but it had me pay attention to the nutritional value of the things I was eating. Before I was just looking at the calories, fat, and carbohydrates but I never tracked it. Still new and scared to hit my goal. Yesterday I was under but not by much. Staying active and being conscientious of my intake should start to shape my outer appearance. My inner state is nothing but confidence, oddly.
I love me.